So on one of my myspace bulletins it said to look up your name in urbandictionary.com, so I did. (i was real bored at work!) Anyways I thought it was funny...you should check your name too!!

1.	Lisa	..."Thumbs.userClickedUp(2846309); return false">342 up, ..."Thumbs.userClickedDown(2846309); return false">89 down
	A very attractive kind of the female gender who has a sultry gaze and a great figure. Lisas are usually attracted to common types of carbohydrates and will devour them vigorously if let loose without caution. Extremely attractive. Whoa! Look at that Lisa passing by!
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	One of the most popular names for a newborn girl in 1970. Most Lisas are hot. "There were 3 hot girls named Lisa in my grade 7 gym class. I didn't know where to look."
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	An intelligent and sexy female with LUSCIOUS physical features. Usually attracts weird guys named David who do absolutely NOTHING for her, but she still remains independent. That Luscious Lisa...

okay so I'm at work...bored to death. My boss just got back in the office today from her trip to Montana. She brought back souveniers for everybody....chocolate bars. Well Huckleberry Razzle Chocolate bars to be exact. Apparently Montana is known for Huckleberries....for those who don't know what those are--its a blueberry. why they call it something different from the rest of the country-- I don't know. So back to the chocolate bar....I was bored and wanted a snack. So i search the office for a snack....nothing....except this "Huckleberry Razzle Chocolate Bar"....not too excited about it  but I need sugar to wake myself up from this dull lifeless state that I'm in right now. So i go for it...i open this bright royal blue metallic wrapper that is covered in a paper wrapper that has a picture of some mountain in Montana drawn on the front.....already not looking good. so i break off a piece of this chocolate bar and put it in my mouth. Now I'm not a big fan of candy bars or even donuts with filling....caramel, rasberry, lemon, cherry...none of it appeals to me....so of course this chocolate bar has filling in it--huckleberry filling!!  And not surprisingly this Huckleberry filling tasted like a blueberry and raspberry mixed...don't get me wrong I am a fan of blue raspberry candy(airheads, blowpops, etc.)  but liquid filling inside of  chocolate no thanks. so needless to say it was not tasting too good to me at this point. But the piece was still in my mouth....my boss is now standing right in front of me so i can't spit it out....but I don't want to swallow it because it was truly disgusting. What do i do?? Do i spit it out and take the chance of offending her.....do i swallow it and endure the taste of this chocolate bar that is making me sick the longer it stays in my mouth. I didn't want to be rude and hurt my bosses feelings...so I swallowed it. Now I'm still stuck in this dull lifeless state since i didn't get my sugar rush....only now i have this nasty taste of blueraspberry filling and chocolate in my mouth....its GREAT!    Its really ****in great!!!

So life has been chaotic lately. It seems like when something goes wrong everything goes wrong. I need to get my truck fixed before it breaks down-- I need a new fuel pump...UGH.  In case you don't know ...it is about $300 for the part then another $300 for labor...ridiculous!

So on top of that my A/C in my house seems to be going out. About once a week i have to go to the outside unit to hose down the pipes/compressor because they have literally frozen...so I have to thaw the ice off and then about an hour later it will start workin again....just one of the downfalls of being a homeowner!! And I gotta buy school books by next week...i need to win the LOTTO

So my next problem is men...this guy that i have been talkin to for a couple months now is a complete ass. He is soo moody...he is worse than a girl during that time of the month--seriously!! I'm so sick of it...he is soo Hot and Cold. When i say I'm done he is all about tryin to talk to me....so then when I'm not mad at him any more he is very distant....what the hell is his problem? I hate these stupid ass games. Are there any guys out there that don't play games...

So all of this stress and some things i didn't want to mention are keepin me up at night...I can't sleep. I wake up at like 2, 3 or 4 am adn will not fall back to sleep. I am soo exhausted. I work all day, take care of my 2 kids, and will be startin school next week (3 night classes) so i wish i can get some sleep....

and now i have to worry about Fay...bring it on

So last week i was pretty anxious about how things were gonna turn out with this guy. Well out at the lake on Saturday  it didn't go so well...we spoke a little bit but it seemed like he was avoiding me. Then he was off work, he gave me a friendly hug goodbye  and left. So i assumed that was it for us...he didn't give me any sign that he forgave me or that he wanted to continue to see me...

So that night my girl and i went to a wedding reception and he was there.  I said hi but after that I didn't pay him any attention since i didn't get a good vibe from him at the lake. I was doing my thing...dancing, mingling, and having fun. Well he was watchin me all night...Then the next thing you know he was next to me the whole time.  Maybe he was gettin jealous of the guys tryin to holla at me...who knows

Well we had a great time...things seemed different that night and the next morning--in a good way though.  Before things were flirty and fun...never talked about anything serious or personal but yesterday we got pretty personal. Not really sure whats changed or maybe I'm reading too much into it. It's a lil weird--not what i expected to happen but good.  I don't really know what to make of it....so I'm just gonna take it day by day and see what happens. 

Wish me luck!

So I've been seeing this guy for a couple months now. I knew going into this that he didn't want a girlfriend and I was okay with that cuz I like chillin with him.  So then people started puttin all this s*** into my head....like he's a man whore; be carfeul; he's probably sleeping with other people; you won't be happy with this situation; you are just another pretty face to him; etc. None of which I actually thought unitl i kept hearing it over and over.

So eventually i let all this get to me. And of course it got to me when i was drinking....not good. I did something stupid....i should never drunk text anybody!! So i told  him thru text that we shouldn't see each other anymore, not to text/call me anymore and then i told him no more flirting when i see him at his job (he's a bartender), no more nothing. None of which i really meant or wanted. I like this guy and when i saw him last Sunday he said hello and goodbye and that was it...it was horrible.

So i called him Monday and apologized for the texts and explained that i was drunk and it jsut said was a bad night. Told him i didn't mean any of it and i hope we could be friends again like we used to cuz i like chillin with him and if he didn't think that was a good idea just let me know. He didn't really say either way if he wanted that or not. So i didn't want to push it. 

Why did i have to let people get to me? He assured me he wasn't with anyone else but  he just didn't want to get serious right now becuz of past relationships. I really screwed this one up. All i wanted from him was to hang out & get to know him better and whatever happens-happens.

I dont' know if i should clear any of this up with him and let him know why all of this came up and what i really want from him or if i should let it go and see what he does next???

I have no idea what will happen next. I hope he forgives me and gives me another chance. I guess I will see how he acts this saturday at the lake (that's where he works).

BTW--I go to the lake every weekend with my kids--not to see him. My kids love it there so i can't punish them becuz of my stupidity...so avoiding the lake is not really an option.

i don't know what i can do to fix this situation or if that's even possible? Any advice?

So I'm hosting this sex toy party next week and I'm so excited. I get to see all my girls, have some drinks and have a blast....oh and of course buy some fun new toys;)

Sorry no boys allowed!!!

okay i am soooooo bored at work today....the storm is making me sleepy, and i'm hungry becuz subway messed up my sub again (a co-worker picked up the order). So tell me how do you forget the meat on an Italian sub...seriously they gave me NO meat. So I had bread, onions, banana peppers and mustard....oh and 1 slice of bacon that doesn' t even belong on an Italian sub. Not to mention i didn't get tomatos becuz of some salmonella risk...wtf? I am boycotting Subway becuz this is like the 3rd time they have ****ed up my food. I will stick to Publix for my subs.